Thursday, September 07, 2006

A Passing Moment

I have felt nothing really since getting my hubby ready for his trip....over the past couple of weeks I have washed, ironed, shopped, packed and helped to prepare him for the journey. Inside I have felt nothing much...no excitement, no joy, no anticipation at what God will do, just a cool detachment laced with thankfulness at God's provision.
Yesterday, I cried....I don't know why.... loneliness maybe....although not really.....and I'm not hormonal...at least I don't think so....
A song came on the radio that reminded me of.....something,..of someone.....I'm not sure.....but it made me miss them....miss them all, all at once....my hubby, my kids, my Jada, my sisters, my old friends, my church family...especially you, Derb....Everyone who has passed through my life over the past few years and left a mark....It was a strange moment really.....indefinable....poignant.
I didn't feel sad....just touched.... like a shadow passing by....and then it was gone....
Back to the business of living....

17 comments:

Scott said...

Wow. I totally get it. I've felt that same way before too. It's overwhelming. Sometimes I feel all the wonderful things people have done for me and want to thank them all. Then I feel sad that I don't even know if some of them are alive.

Kimber said...

I get it too :) I have had those days and those exact emotions - so out of the "blue" sometimes...

Hope you are having a Happier day today :)

Amydeanne said...

Hugs! It happens to all of us I think! moments creep up on us and tears are only an expression of small parts of it!

Tammy said...

Hey Miz Cheryl,
Stopping by to thank you for coming by my blog this week while I was away....sounds like you may need a (((hug)))
Praying for Peace for your heart and soul!!
:-D

Hliza said...

I do feel the same once in a while. Sometimes you suddenly realise life is so short and there;s so many people you have lost or haven't reach out to.

Sissy B. said...

I have those moments...it can be triggered by the most ordinary things...don't forget though...our bodies rid themselves of toxins through our tears...perhaps you just needed a good cleaning :)....

My Wordless Wednesday photo was a house that caught my eye in Bisbee, Arizona. We were stationed at Ft. Huachuca and went to Bisbee for the day. It is the most awesome, quaint little town. I took this photo because I felt that this is how I would want my home in the mountains to look like...only I ended up on the Nature Coast instead :)

Hope the sun is shining through for you today and all those tears are dried.

jayjay said...

Aw thanks for writing so honestly, Cheryl. Yes, I've experienced those sorts of moments, as if the sun (which is ALWAYS there) is briefly passed by a light white cloud, and a shadow falls across you, and you realise that your home is elsewhere.
Jen

momteacherfriend said...

And it was good!

BekABoo said...

I can totally relate these days, so far from everyone. Glad I called yesterday then! I'm here for you any time. Love you!

Mrs. Mac said...

It's good that moments like that pass. Sometimes life stands still and we feel nothing, then we wake up and remember to smell the fresh coffee, or roses.

BarBarA said...

I get it three. Sounds like a good cry. When will hubby be back?

(i've used that same crying eye in a post too...it's so pretty yet sad)

dawnaj1958 said...

I understand. Sometimes God whispers to us of His love. And oh, the way He always "over-blesses" us with loved ones. Close your eyes...feel his arms wrap around you. Do you know the song "Just One Thing" by Anne Downing?

Just One thing, Lord I need
Wrap your arms around me.
Draw me close to your side,
Til our hearts are one in stride.
Halting time in its place, let me hide in Your embrace.

Lightening, thunder,
earthquakes under
my feet,
You speak...and all the fear is gone.....Just one thing, Lord I need, wrap Your arms around me.

May God bless you and keep your heart cheerful. Hugs, Dawna

Joni said...

I so, so get it, too. (What number am I? I get it...13?) :o)

May God's love and joy and overwhelming sense of encompassing Presence be yours today.

Thanks for stopping by my blog. You brightened my day!

Mrs Zeke said...

HI

and I think they are beautiful reminders to feel


be loved sister you are

Ame said...

You know, I think God is so good to protect us when we need to be protected and then to allow us emotion when we are free to feel. Time alone ... unlimited ... freedom to go to this place with Him ... very special and precious. What an intimate experience to share :) Makes me wonder what God has for you and Him alone while hubby is away ... hummm ...

Barb said...

I think we all have days like that. I get so mushy sometimes that the photo you posted in this post made me teary eyed.

Gina said...

I feel for you Cheryl. Life is so confusing sometimes and it's so sad when we all have to be apart from those we love. I wish I knew the words. Won't it be fun to look across the singing choir and see all the faces we love in one place one day. What a day that will be. I know it doesn't necessarily help now. I have so many of those days too. Tomorrow is another day. Perhaps a brighter one. {{HUGS}}