Monday, July 31, 2006

Jada

Quotes from the week:

Gigi, you're my best friend!
Is Poppy home yet?
I want to ride my bike and wear my knee pads.
Will you read me "Babar"?
Who was that boy who gave me Animal Crackers? (Mr. G., Poppy's boss)
There's a bug in my sandbox!!
Can we play in the sprinkler?
Poppy, you're my best friend!
We went to the museum...I painted a picture.
Can I read to you?....."Sometimes Sister Bear is too bossy!!" (from the Berenstein Bears series)
I don't wanna wear these anymore.
I'm playing house with D.W.
I don't like lightening bugs, Gigi..... Get it!! get it!! Put it in the jar!
Granny, (my mom) can we watch cartoons? You're my best friend!
Sing with me Gigi!
and....
Jada, "That's me in the picture".... Gigi, "Really? Are you sure?" Jada, "Yes, that's me" Gigi, "Do you have blue eyes?" Jada, "Yes." Gigi, "Do you have blonde hair?" Jada, "No, I got this." (pointing to her head) LOL
and the topper...Jada, "I'm a black girl and a white girl, all mixed together!" Gigi, "who told you that?"...Jada,"My mommy!"

Great week with Jadabear. We had such fun with her. Nothing like waking up beside a sweet little something and having her put her arms around your neck and say you're her best friend!

Wednesday, July 26, 2006

Disappointments

They come in all shapes and sizes, don't they?
Some are small, like the restaurant being out of shrimp, when that's what you came for in the first place...or those gorgeous shoes not fitting, even though you have tried every size...they just won't work after all.
Then there are the bigger ones, like when our weekend vacation got cancelled due to an unexpected business obligation or when our darling granddaughter was supposed to come to visit and was unable to make it.
These are all overcomable...not the end of the world...Small hills in the rollercoaster of life...just not what you were expecting. They are unsettling in some way....like taking a big drink of iced tea only to find your glass filled with soda instead....yuck! ...though I love em both... :)

Then there are the larger disappointments that invariably come our way....losing that great promotion, finding out you aren't pregnant after all, the house you wanted selling before you could place a bid....disappointing but still managable...
And of course there are the Colossal ones.....the ones that hang you up by your heels and drop you into darkness like you've never known...whirling to the very edge of disaster emotionally, mentally, financially or all of the above.
The heartbreak of a failed marriage, a child who determines to go their own way when you and eveyone around them can see that destruction lies ahead,..... failure to make it in your career of choice...like not passing the barr after all those years of law school....
never seeing your particular dream come true....
The kind of disappointments that seem to much to bear.

Yet even in the darkness or when everything seems to be spinning out of control so much of life can change at a moments notice...turn on a dime...just as with a wild and crazy rollercaoster ride...there are dips and turns and sharp curves. With hardly any notice at all you may be standing on your head screaming at the top of your lungs, plunged into blackness, or on top of the world.
Yes, the top of the world is also an option with rollercoaster rides...though in keeping with rollercoasters, they don't seem to last long, do they?

Things can change just that dramatically...from devastation to rejoicing, blackness can turn around to dazzling light and what is perceived as tragedy may become victory.... how we handle those crazy, unexpected, scary moments may well define our lives....

Can disappointment bring out the best in us? Can it cause us to see who we really are, encourage us to make changes, see what we can actually do and who we have hope to become?
I suppose this is along the same lines as the post about grace and peace ....But be sure, what ever is in us will come out when the rollercoaster of life slings us around...be it good or bad.....
This is when, as the saying goes, "the rubber meets the road"...the times when true character is defined...
What you have inside, what your life is made of,... is clarified, solidified, and usually made terribly public.... the places in the ride that you cannot hide....they are huge like Six Flags' Goliath and can be seen for miles...you cannot smile and pretend everything is fine...we all know better...

As a fellow blogger said to me..."at least its not a merry go round".....and right she is...where would be the fun in that?

On this wild ride called life, how will you hang on?.... what will you hold to?
May goodness and grace, character and common sense, and above all a sense of adventure come flying out of you as you ride this rollercaster called life, with all its ups and downs.... and hang on.....
Hang on to Jesus Christ ....He's never been thrown for a loop yet. :)

Monday, July 24, 2006

Hooray!!

She made it!
We drove 6 hours round trip to meet her mommy halfway and pick her up. She will now be with us the entire week! and we will do it again next Sunday to return her. The sandbox was a huge hit! (pics to follow) she loves it and can't wait to get back out there today. She also loves her Poppy! and won't let him out of her sight. He is babysitting all day today! I expect I'll have to tuck them both in tonight. :) ...after we catch lightening bugs...LOL

Life really IS a rollercoaster ride!

Saturday, July 22, 2006

I'm so bummed!

Jada didn't come! They started out...but an hour or two from home the car began to have trouble so they had to call for assistance and ended up going back home for repairs. She probably will not get to come at all...We are SOOO disapointed! and the sandbox looks so lonely! ...and its raining....:(
Very sad....boo hoo!

Friday, July 21, 2006

LIF is yours


I don't really have any Lyrics I'm Feeling today...which is very unusual...as you may know.. :)
No lines of songs floating through my head or unceasingly coming out of my mouth driving my family nuts....nothing moving in my spirit, song wise anyway...:) guess I have a lot of other stuff on my mind just now.

So how 'bout you? Any songs speaking to you lately? Share a few lines with us and what they mean to you....it would make my day.

Thursday, July 20, 2006

Truth

More drama in the house...well...maybe its more internal drama than external...
My sweet youngest is going through very hard times...you all have seen some of her stuff over the past few blogs and there is more, much more that I haven't posted....anyway...I am trying to feel my way along in how to talk to her, share with her, help her...without...you know...being a mom, too much...(how do you stop ??)
Today I am really seeking the Lord...will you also, on my behalf?

I don't ascribe to the point and click method of Bible reading or finding direction from God,... you know the method where you just open the scriptures, close your eyes and point to something, then apply it to your situation....I heard of a man once who did this and read "Judas went out and hanged himself", so he tried again and the verse said "go thou and do likewise"...not really a reliable plan. :)
However...today I had no idea where to go for this situation I am dealing with so I basically did just that...
First, I got out my VERY old bible...it is the one I had in highschool and is literally in rags...
It is also well marked with verses that applied to my life back then, dealing with the things teenagers deal with. I don't know why I got this one out...it was handy??
It fell open first to Jn 18:37 when Jesus, before Pilate said "to this end was I born, and for this cause came I into the world, that I should bear witness unto the truth. Every one that is of the truth heareth my voice".
Next the old book fell open to I Jn. 2:27-28 which says.. "But the anointing which you have received of him abideth in you and you need not that any man teach you; but as the same anointing teacheth you of all things, and is truth, and is no lie, and even as it hath taught you, you shall abide in him. And now, little children, abide in him; that, when he shall appear, we may have confidence, and not be ashamed before him at his coming."

It seems that perhaps, what the Lord wants me to convey to my dear daughter, is wrapped up in these verses....she knows the truth, deep down she cannot deny it...she has known the Truth, she can hear His voice, this I am sure of. I can really only encourage her to hear that voice and to abide...He can speak things to her that I never can...
.....I never take for granted the prayers of the saints, you are my friends, my sisters....Pray for us today, please.
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Is life always a rollercoaster ride?!?!

Wednesday, July 19, 2006

I know you are all waiting with bated breath....

We got it!!

65.00 -sandbox
17.00- sand
15.00- gas for truck
50.00- $19.99 rental + mileage
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147.00 - total


....the look on her face when she sees it...Priceless :)
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.....So this is how our budget gets out of control....hmmmmm

Tuesday, July 18, 2006

Shopping for

This

for you know who....

Now, how to get it home... it won't fit into either of our cars....

we may have to resort to renting a truck!

Oh brother! the things we do for love!

Monday, July 17, 2006

Re-Cap

Good weekend...
new air conditioning...Yay!
clean...and I do mean clean bathrooms
funny book to read
sun to bathe in
Sale to shop at
movies to watch
"new" chair in the living room (lol)
good news...Jada is definitly coming on Friday!!

Friday, July 14, 2006

Still thinking....

about freedom...about free...
Why is that we have such a hard time with Free?......We always think there is a catch, we always think there is some hidden agenda...
I read a blog once where a lady and her friend had decided to have a Free Yard Sale...I guess that would be a Yard Free...haha
They wanted to give their stuff away rather than sell it....I know, novel idea...
What I found most interesting was the reaction of their patrons.
Said blogger reported that people asked repeatedly if the items were really free?
When assured that they were, the customers would either grab as much stuff as they could and hurry away or take one or two things furtively avoiding eye contact, as if they were actually stealing and didn't want anyone to see them.

Isn't this interesting??
Don't we treat God much the same way....spending most of our time looking for the catch, looking over our shoulders...feeling like we really should pay something?...some pennance? At least we should try really hard to "do good".
Or on the other end.... we take the freedom He offers and run with it as far as we dare....hoping and praying He really means it and will forgive us in the end...


I pass a florist on my way into work each day and sometimes, like now, they run a special promotion...If your name is __________ come in for a free flower. Today the name is Bobbie....do you think ayone who is not named Bobbie will come in and ask for a free flower...Not on your life...

we subconsiciously think...I suppose from years of experience, that there must be a hidden price somewhere....
we must pay some penalty...even the florist requires us to have the correct name after all.

But the gift of God is truly FREE, .....to us that is....it is in actuality very pricy, but to us...it is offered completly free...just ask...just receive....not only forgiveness from sin...oh no, that's only the beginning...the tip of the iceberg.
We are completely free...
from our past, from expectations, from our future, ...from our selves
we are free to soar in Him, explore Him and His kingdom...to love and be loved...

and yes, even free to sin...if we are foolish enough to....
He loves and forgives and accepts us...freely...always....
Of course we are also free to reap the consequences of our actions....and to find ourselves far from the freedom we originally embraced because sin enslaves...
but not to get off on sin...its well covered in church most Sundays...and I'd like to swing the pendulum the other way for a change.

In conclusion...(now you have your sermon for the week ;))
We are free in Christ, to love Him, to pursue Him, to know Him, to be one with Him, to experience Him in every way.....no strings attached....really.....

How free is free? Its as big as God Himself, as Free as He is..."because as He is, so are we in this life" I Jn 4:17

Thursday, July 13, 2006

FREEDOM

Ahhh...I'm all better now...at least until the next crisis...lol Thanks to everyone for giving me the freedom to whine...:)

...and speaking of freedom......

What does this word mean to you?? Its been popping up in my blog conversations this week...it seems to be a theme He is reminding me of.
It is a very important word to me and I would love for myself, my friends, my family...everyone, to experience more of it...in the context of Christ.

freedom: below I have listed definitions per the good ole dictionary: now try thinking of them in the context of Christ and just how far reaching His freedom is. Just pick one and carry it out to its natural conclusion and see if God doesn't open you up to thoughts you've never had before, possibilities you've never dreamed of in Him....How free is free?

1) (in Christ) The power to act, speak, or think without imposed restraints.
2) (in Christ) Liberty from slavery, detention, or oppression.
3) (in Christ) Exemption from the arbitrary exercise of authority
4) (in Christ) Exemption from an unpleasant or onerous condition: ie. freedom from want.
5) (in Christ)The capacity to exercise choice; free will
6) (in Christ) Ease or facility of movement.
7) (in Christ) Frankness or boldness; lack of reserve.
8) (in Christ) The right to unrestricted use; full access.( I really like this one!) :)
9) (in Christ) The right of enjoying all of the privileges of membership or citizenship. (this one too!)
10) (in Christ) A right or the power to engage in certain actions without control or interference.

How free is free?...He led capitivity captive....Whom the Son sets free is free indeed....
Dare we believe?

Wednesday, July 12, 2006

Waiting and whining...

We're waiting for the second doctor's OK on Jada. She seems completley fine although she did break out in hives yesterday when the first doctor poked around in her nose and she got upset...the hives have dissipated now and all seems well. He says she looks good but wants to see her back in a month....second doctor is proving to be difficult to get in to see....does she need to see her or not?!? she's the one who said to bring her in this week....so we don't know yet if Jada will be coming up to visit....ahhhh me...life certainly does drag on doesn't it?

We are having a new air conditioner/furnace unit installed in our upstairs...the old one broke down about a month ago but we have managed...with the aid of a travelling mother, a downstairs sleeper sofa and a trip to the mountains, to go this long with out getting a new one...it is no longer possible to drag this one out...it is too hot, at 7:30 am to get ready for work ( we live in the deep South people, its HOT)....on Friday, after the exchange of several thousands of dollars...we will once again have cool air upstairs. At least if Jada does come she will be able to sleep....

I'm very tired of dealing with life's many details.....yesterday it was the AC, today its car insurance and car repairs (Kate's car was broken into and trashed while at the hospital)....tomorrow.....who knows what crisis will arrise......all while waiting on doctors....Arrgh!

Sorry. I'm feeling a bit cranky today...must have caught some of Tammy's hormones...

Monday, July 10, 2006

The World Cup and Pirates

Did you see the World Cup final? Unbelievable! To have an amazing career tainted by such an ugly display....and to lose the match in the bargain....to those of you who did not see...the star player for the French, who is retiring after this game from an incredible career, lost his temper and flagrantly head butted an Italian player getting himself thrown out of the match which the French eventually lost.
Just goes to show that what is inside will come out under pressure....its true for all of us isn't it? I hope I ooze grace and mercy when the heat is on...but I know that sometimes ugly things come out, just when I most want to stay under control, or "be a good witness"....
I don't think the Lord is ever surprised by what comes out of us, becuase He knows our hearts already, but I sure am surprised sometimes...guess He wants me to be aware, yet again, just how dark my heart can be....it keeps me needing to be filled up more and more with Him...so He can be what oozes out of me when the pressure is on.

Did you see Pirates?? spooky, fun and funny(I laughed a lot)...never cared for Johnny Depp til he became a pirate :).......but just when you think the movie is finally going somewhere......its over til next year! I have no spiritual metaphors for this one....only frustration......we have to wait til next May?!?! :)

Ahhh, happy Monday!

Friday, July 07, 2006

LIF

My hubby and I sang this together as we trekked through the incredible NC mountains this past weekend...I particularly relate to the last verse.....He has truly broken the many chains that bound me and though always and forever free, I never feel freer than when I am alone with God in His creation. I don't know who wrote this...maybe a brother in one of the churches we have fellowship with...



I give You all the honor and the praise thats due Your name
For You are the King of glory
The creator of all things

And I worship You
I give my life to You
I fall down on my knees

As Your Spirit moves upon me now
You meet my deepest need
And I lift my voice to praise Your name
Through all eternity

And I worship You
I give my life to You
I fall down on my knees

You have broken chains that bound me
You've set this captive free
I will lift my hands to praise your name
Through all eternity

And I worship You
I give my life to You
I fall down on my knees
and I worship You.......

Thursday, July 06, 2006

We're baaaacckk

Back home, back to work and back to blog...;)
fun fun fun in the mountains...actually very relaxing...uh yeah, isn't that how va-cas are supposed to be?? duh...how come mine never seem to work out like that...we were stressed to the max before departing so maybe we really felt the relaxation this time. :)
Jada girl didn't go home from the hospital til the 4th...she did end up having a piece of the wooden stick lodged in her sinuses which they discovered and removed on Monday nite. She is recovering nicely but staying with her other grandma this week as she cannot go back to school yet and her mommy is starting her new job....oh yeah, except for mommy's terrible cold she caught hanging out in the hospital...they actually sent mommy home yesterday from her first day on the job...poor baby...she's had her plate full these past couple of months!
Please God, let things settle down for them for a while now!

We had a wonderful few days hiking, biking and generally tromping around Pisgah National Forrest and the cute little town of Brevard where, believe it or not they have white squirrels...yes they do! Not albino...an actual species of white ones.
I read a complete novel one day, ate out plenty, had a campfire and toasted marshmallows, and heard the Declaration of Independence read in the town square on the 4th. Our fireworks got rained out that evening so we just packed up and took the scenic route home on Wed. And I do mean the scenic route...that would be the Blue Ridge Parkway....It was gorgeous!
We definitley will be purchasing a mountain cabin somewhere one of these days!

Remind me to tell you what mini revelations I had regarding fire and water....:)
I never go anywhere without the Lord so He was there to whisper in my ear and keep me company while sitting by the fire or hiking to some hidden waterfall....
nature itself teaches so much of God....

Hope your 4th was fun and that you were reminded just how much we have to be thankful for in this country! I'll get by your blogs soon...gotta get some work done right now! lol

Saturday, July 01, 2006

Gone Away

We are on vacation for a few days!! (Up north they say "down the shore or gone away" when they are vacationing..which seems to be every weekend or sometimes the entire summer, those lucky ducks!)
Yay for us! Our first in a long time and our first ever officially with no kiddos! :) Didn't know for sure if this was gonna happen with all the Jada drama(she didn't go home after all...3-5 more days in hosp. with IV antibiotics but her face is looking much better and Kate has lots of help)... but looks like we're gonna make it. Here's to a few days here, in the NC mountains, hiking, biking and generally relaxing (we don't fish but we love the camping without a tent thing and it was short notice. lol). I even got new hiking shoes...very cute ones...:)

Thanks again sooo much for all your prayers!!

Have a Happy 4th! God Bless America!!