Wednesday, March 22, 2006

Keepin it real

I'm feeling kind of weird this week. Trying to keep it light but feelin that stirring in my gut, a lump in my throat much of the day. Don't worry, its not my heart...my physical one anyway. :) Millions of thoughts rushing through my mind - memories, faces, futures. Deeper thinking than I want to aspire to right now.
Do you ever just want to run away from your situation and not think or feel for a while? Of course you do, that's why we take vacations...lol
Sometimes I really just want to go out to eat or lie on a beach or drive somewhere - anywhere with someone and talk about nonsense..or maybe not, maybe talk about important stuff that we've been keeping inside while just trying to "get through it". Sigh...it seems I am not to be afforded the luxury of a dumping ground for my issues other than my poor husband. This seems to have always been my lot and those who might have qualified are named in the faces I see swimming in my brain this week. I can feel things going on in my spirit, but are they things that pertain to me? I don't know, but as busy as my mind and spirit are, I would think so. Things are stirring....
So what to do? No where to run, nowhere to hide and no one to confide in. Another one of those talk to God things. My nephew once said, as a little boy who was sick and his mom prayed for Jesus to make him better, " I want a Jesus with skin on Him"....... Me too!

5 comments:

Gina said...

I hear you Cheryl and will say a special prayer for you this evening. Even though it's in these times, the challenging ones, that one learns the valuable lessons, they remain tough. One day it will all be worth the struggle, the confusion, the blahs and the heartache. Meanwhile, that water sure looks inviting. On the sweet by and by we shall meet on that beautiful shore. I bet it will be every bit as beautiful and more. God bless you.

bjk said...

mmmmmm yes.

Tammy said...

Amen...wouldn't it be nice if Jesus was truly physically among us to just give us that HUG and tell us it's all going to be OK?? I wish we lived closer...we could do lunch! God bless!

Jada's Gigi said...

Thanks girls, you are all Jesus with skin on...:) only you're so far away....

kath said...

i have had many of those "run away " moments myself.. and when there is nowhere to run to.. nowhere to hid.. it just gets worse!

I hope that soon you are feeling positive and loved and warm and safe..

sending positive energy at ya!